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Good Morning...
We are going to escape this weekend!! Yay! Hubby and I have decided to pack up our kiddies and our pup and go see Aunt Nancy in Oregon. I asked when we will come back and hubby says "When we get bored or run out of money...whichever comes first" lol! I think he needs a break too! There is still snow on Mt. Ashland so Rob and Jake are most likely going to snowboard...I'll post pics when we return!
Everyone have a GREAT weekend!!!

Really its been since August??

I really need to blog more! Yikes!!

Well I officially hate 2010! This year has given me nothing but struggle.

Lets see...January 10th, I lost my Gram..the woman who raised me after my Mom passed away when I was only 9...but more than that she was the woman who was there from day one! My Mom was only 15 yrs old when I was born so...My Gram was there...ALWAYS. And now she's not...and it hurts, it hurts bad!

I recently got laid off from my job, a job I LOVED! I was there for almost 3 years and this damn economy sucks soooooooo bad that cutbacks had to be made...and unfortunately, I was one of them.

Last week I found out that the house we are renting is going into foreclosure, so we will have to move. Who knows when? I'm not moving until I get kicked out! Free Rent? Hell Ya!

On Saturday March 20th we lost a 14 year old from our Moto family. Jesse Masterpool passed away due to injuries caused by a crash while he was racing. I didn't know him personally but my 15 year old son did...he raced with Jesse. Jesse is the second kid that was close to my son that we have lost due to racing. My friends son Ben was 15 years old when he crashed and passed away due to injuries. Do I put my son in a bubble? Do I not let him race? No. He could be the boy that plays baseball and gets hit in the head by a line drive or the kid crossing the street that gets hit by a car. What I do is make sure he realizes that riding can be dangerous and that he's out there to have fun. We make sure he has all of the best protective equipment and we pray...every time he's on the track. Riding is his great love and he is one of mine.

So needless to say, its only March and I'm having a rough year. I hope to God it gets better.

Really??

I know I don't post often and I'm sorry....you can ALWAYS find me on Facebook tho! lol!

I just had to write a few words today....and they are, I cannot believe my baby boy is starting High School today...and I cannot believe my baby girl is in her last year at elementary school!!

A little depressed today! I don't want them to grow up...its happening toooooooooooo fast!

HELP!!

I know I dont blog often...I'm just here asking you to check out my friends Jenny and Joe! They have a great project going on and they can use your help!!! Thanks!

THANKFUL TUESDAY!

Yay...I'm finally on to do one of Denise's Thankful Tuesdays!! Its been forever since I've done one...

This weeks subject is open...so here goes just off the top of my head!

1. This week I am thankful that my kids are almost done with school!! Final projects will be turned in by the end of the week and books are returned to school!! Yay for summer!



2. I am thankful that my son, Jake will be promoting into High School next Tuesday! Yes that's right, I said High School! There was a time that the doctors told me he didn't have a chance...and here he is, 14 years old making his journey into High School! I'm so very proud of him!



3. I am thankful for being able to spend some quality time with some dear old friends, Jenny and Kelly, that I haven't been able to be close to other than the here and there quick hello on Myspace or Facebook. I really cannot believe that Jenny moved in across the street! And when Kelly comes to visit I get to see her too!! Yay!!!



4. On that note I am thankful that ALL of our children have become friends...I have Jake and Jessica. Kelly has Kourtney, Maggie and Jacklyn and Jenny has Brooklyn, Zeke, Mercy and Judah...it was so cute how they all just bonded like they were family!



5. I am thankful that my friend Denise is getting some relief from her morning (all day) sickness and that we may be able to spend some time together this week. I really miss her!



6. I am thankful that I got to start tanning this week! I don't wanna be a ghost in August when we go to Hawaii!!



7. I am thankful that I have started to ease my way back to the gym...slowly! lol!



8. I am thankful that my hubby got to go into work at a decent hour on Monday (8am...he usually goes at 5:30 am) it was nice waking up and him still being there and being a part of our weekday routine. I even got coffee in bed! Thanks Honey!!



9. I'm thankful that I got to spend an AWESOME night out with my SIL Sara, on her birthday! We dressed up in pretty dresses and went to an art auction fundraiser for our kids school. It was so fun!!



10. And lastly, I'm thankful that everyone I know is actually doing really good right now! Dad is home from the hospital and healing, we are on track for the summer with a great vacation planned, Denise and her family are expecting a healthy new baby =) All just seems to be well! And I am so very thankful for that!

Its been forever....but here's a new one!

Just gonna post a few pics...I really had a "Flashback Friday"

WAY...BACK IN THE DAY!

Kelly, Trina and Jenny

And today...

Got to spend some time with a few great friends that I haven't hung out with since...um...wow I was 15 or 16!! Kelly and Jenny are sisters...we met while living on Mare Island when we were kids...and now...our kids are playing together! Its a trip! Love you girls and it was soooooooo great catching up!!

OUR BIG GIRLS...Kourtney, Jessica and Brooklyn

JUST A FEW OF THE CLAN...

Kourtney, Maggie (Kelly) Brooklyn and Zeke (Jenny) and Miss Jessica

Cannot wait until next time! Lucky for me Jenny just recently moved across the street from me so I get to enjoy her all the time now!! Yay!!!!

Bad Dreams....????

Ok...I know I haven't posted in FOREVER!!! So I will jot down a few lines now!
So last night I had a horrible dream...that was actually mind opening and kinda peaceful...if that makes sense! lol

In this dream I was planning my husbands funeral!!!! WHAT THE HECK!!!!!!! I have no idea how he died or how much time had past but I was actually ok for the most part. (It was present day, I was exactly the age I am now and so were my kids) I remember being a his FAVORITE track in Turlock, "THE OATFIELD"...there were hundreds of people there!! (My husband is a VERY quiet guy and doesnt have many friends, as he really just keeps to himself and his family so this is why I'm sooooooooooo surprised and happy so many people turned out.) I was the one doing ALL of the talking, which I'm sure if this day EVER comes when I'm still alive I will NOT be doing ANY of the talking!!! (I told him that I have to go before him because I could never survive a day on this earth without him!!)

Anyhoo, I remember saying things like, Robert only had a few loves in his life, his children, myself (hopefully, lol), his family and friends, his truck and dirtbike and this track! (meaning the track we were having the funeral at) I went on to say, we have been coming to this track for about 12 years, before my son could even race (Jake raced his very first race at 4 1/2 years old at this track). My husband broke bones on this track and still loved it!

I pointed people out in the crowd- like this kid that we have seen grow up on the track and I said "He loved to ride the track but he also loved to watch people, like you Mark Braden, he was so amazed by the way you have grown up and have learned to race on big bikes now...he cannot believe you could kick his but on the track and you're only 13!!" (there were giggles)

I went on to say "and the girls at the sign in trailer, Amy and Glenda, he couldn't go a weekend without giving you a hard time...but he would ALWAYS stop by to say hello...because you made him smile, thank you.

"Jack and Corky,(which are father and son who own the track) He would give you a hard time about playing poker on Saturday nights between races instead of prepping the track for the next day...just cuz he thought it was funny...but he knew how hard you guys work and appreciated you so much and he knew you needed a break! (The dream seemed to keep going on and on....)

I pointed people out that just stood out in his life, people I think I didn't even know really did...like my BFF's husband Erik, in my dream Erik had turned out to be a WONDERFUL friend to Robert...even though Rob is quiet and not "hard to get along with" but hard to judge cuz you think he's mad all the time when in reality...he's just being himself and taking it easy...lol!! But anyway, I'm off subject...I remember telling Erik in my dream that I loved him so much for being such a great friend to Rob and for being there when we needed ANYTHING! Its crazy...right? Cuz in real life Erik and Rob and friends, yes...but in my dream, he was a "GREAT" friend of my husband...and I was very touched by that!
In my dream I had Robert cremated and Corky dug a hole below one of the greatest jumps in Oatfield history, the step up, and we placed my husbands ashes and his riding gloves in there...where he would forever be...at his Favorite Track!


Ok...when I woke up I reached over and grabbed my husband...waking him up and I told him "you can NEVER die!" I was crying!!! He held me and giggled...but I'm not sure he has any idea how in depth this dream was...I don't even think I posted the half of it!! Just what I could really remember.

I have to say something to those of you that know us, you know that my husband doesn't "hang out" with us when we do our thing...he doesn't really wanna go places and do things we do...but it isn't because he doesn't like you, as some may think, or he's mad at you or me...Its just because this is who he is...a chill, mellow guy who LOVES to just hang out with his kids, chill in the garage, ride his dirtbike and love his family! He is my husband...and I completely ADORE him!! Please, just give him a chance...you will love him too!! =0)

This dream just made me realize...you don't really know what you've got until its gone! We need to take a step back from our lives and look from the outside in...realize what is important! Its not the material things that can be replaced! Its those you love and adore! Cherish them! They may not be around forever!